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Only After Dark

by Frazer Spooner

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1.
Wood 03:05
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As I awoke from an hour in the radiation, of a million lights of a million shards in my role Pick up the key and get my currency out of the kitchen, makin my way into the night, I think I'm ready to go Condemn the tides around your wheels, conflict directions that you feel, will take us where the bear should roam, should take us closer to the home, of the lonely Ripped up the pavement with the heels of my shoes, as the jawbone waited endlessly to swallow us whole, to spike my tenets, kill my friends and taint my soul We wandered aimlessly with dendritic hearts through the eye of the forest blinking sharply twice to stop myself from blacking out from all the grape and grain confusion Turning left and left and left and left and left and left and left again Bottles in hand, hand on heart for nubile miscreations, going against their parents words, going head on into loss of their innocence I was forewarned about the trashiness of cult-like dwellings, but curiosities aside I needed tender holy charms, to find any sense In why I trekked through broken reed, beneath the blisters on my feet, to find bucolic canapies, to find the woman that I need, least I pleaded for I tried to cure depression I tried to stay in season All sanguinary missions Will end in isolation I tried to leave before the music started playing cause I didn't want to have to drag a body through the dark But then I saw her dancing slowly under influence of, everything she'd ever, wanted happiness to be We still endeavour through the basin of momentary relations, to find out what you're ever really looking for However now I feel incredible yet irritated and need to die to truly live, I need resentment to forget
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You'll Be Mine 00:43
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You'll be mine, that's without a doubt There's no point in stepping out of line Please make sure, that you're self assured And your heart ain't beating out of time There's a check-list of your self-destruction, annihilation, your breathing rights If you find that you are losing faith in, the human race then, it's alright
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A Clockwork Orange 03:33
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I've started to live for all the wrong reasons Another bottle to boot, another nightmare of you Shameless education and drinking by the dozen Roll up cigarettes, and a fear of truly loving anyone, who doesn't see it like I do And I have grown to be so insecure, impatient to new ideas And I'm still terrified Of you becoming better alone, and the emptiness of my walk home What I need most lately, is the perfect companion Not just desperate encounters, or even over-the-counters But there's no real solution, to chronic depression Just gotta muscle it out, pretend the happiness cools it all down, or maybe it's for good this time around I'll settle for caffeine injections, implant protection, over-obsession Cause I'm still traumatised Of finding out I'm better alone, and the emptiness of my walk home I need somebody to save me, hold me and hate me, love me and rape me And I'm so paralysed By speaking to you over the phone, and the emptiness of my walk home
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This Disassembly 02:54
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I deserve a stroke Or an accident Why's the world so high On innocence in love I see no sense in being in love I arrive the way I always do in emptiness filled in with guilt oh I what a lonely way to die If I had another chance to stay would I stay I hope I've already run half the way back home to you ooh there's no-one else that I'd rather do-ooh-oh Let me know how I, can feel it tonight Pull me into your arms, and mangle my spine Kill the last of my friends if you'll pour me some wine Bathe in all my enemies blood with you Comment how the sun's never up with you How did I come out of the wood with you ooh Maybe break my arms Or try and dislocate the Left side of my brain Lobotomise my love, drive railway spikes into my love Surely we, are more than everything, I cannot believe this is true oh I, found a way to match that high If I had another chance to stay would I stay, I hope I've already hopped on the train back home to you ooh there's probably someone else I'd rather do But in the mean time I've got you
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Oh, Broken Lamplight 02:54
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Time is cool and oh so precious Best excuse for double measures Am I being vain again Are we still the very best of friends Of all the things I tell you Never mention my trust issues Cried when you first left my home Never want you to leave me alone I'm far too lazy to lose weight I savour love less than the hate Crack wise to gain attention More flaws than I'd like to mention And now, I'm coming round to it all I'd pretend I didn't need friends Independence drove me round bends Said we must meet up some time Then I'd sit and fantasise I'm attracted to most people There's the burning church and steeple Over by my innocence Slightly singed but makes no sense But now, I'm coming round to it all Fuck me over be my sunshine I'm in a romantic decline Sex is starting to make me A parody of all I've ever been I always wait to be in pain So there's a story to my play I always act the leading role It's my production life's a show Charity means nothing to me Cause of all my insecurities Where's the storm of purest white Where's another bottle of this wine I'm breaking down to it all
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Smoke Clouds & Dust Bowls 02:27
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I saw the play last night I thought Your aggressive style was impressive Stabbing the opiate brother As he went down for another Every mistake you made was played off in the smartest way Kicking and screaming in limbo The purge of our glorious Style as sweet as substance Our exo-chaotic charm Of all the admiral wings you clipped I thought you'd spare us ours Destined to fall in love north of Rahway You've had enough of the neo-superlative drip feed The finest alternative history You write the lines I'll act them As a newborn; in-vitro holocaust Somebody's calling your first name Wanting to give you their last name Scaling new horizons, your lies are secrets too Sarcophogas in waiting for the love you misconstrued Your friends are my lovers now Your heights are my coming down Your new disciples are my, enslaved antagonists in this Satanic nativity Our slanderous trinity I might still care for you but You'll always be a mess to me
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Toi et Moi 03:41
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Everything is better when I imagine you're with me forever I was hoping that I could ask for you when I wanted And should I see you again I'll crawl right out of my skin and salute you till the sun goes back in We can sleep in the garden in the summer when it's too hot to stay inside We can sleep under ten layers of blankets in the winter And in the spring I'll still be the boy you asked me to be Then in autumn, I promised I'd never leave Drinking cider and champagne, to celebrate nothing in particular at all Except for finding you but still I'm the only person who's allowed to wake and say, I love you more and more with every moment of the day Killing time till the sunset, on the cold floor, kiss in the kitchen till sunrise Then we'll spend half the afternoon asleep on the mattress Now that I know who you are I want you more than before what a cliche, that's what love's all about After a while I feel completely fine again, probably the first time in I can't remember when Maybe back when I met you that fateful night If only you could see I wanna be there always, I'm so obsessed and so possessive of you most days Leave my phone at the bedside, when you're with me, cause no one else really matters (What a) thrill just to have you here at all I'm hysterical We've got the world at our feet, the hardest lovers to beat, I'm really sorry I came, when it was nearly too late, back then I loved you, and I still feel the same
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Beehive Grand 03:11
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Past the dark oak arch and, the feminine sky Lives a glimpse of the past through, the look in your eyes Only now I've adored someone as savage as you Will I start to recall not everything is askew Should I start to become, such a beautiful wreck Will you send me to sleep, will you put me to bed Cause with you everything is still caught in the haze Every average situation is desirably strange Who are you to offer paradise? Who am I to act as cold as ice? I'm always left in the same boat when they have gone But I promise our shores will be beautiful For now I'll stay but every second of the day I cannot be alone When this perfection turns bad I'll find my ultimate sadness But for now I won't survive alone, I need you and you know I won't survive alone Maybe down by the pier as the lighthouse adjourns Turn my back to the ocean give up all of the words I've been writing in droves to simply give it away But if it's anywhere with you I'll bet the ending is okay Who are you to be a paradise? Apparently so cold I stood in time Don't wanna waste the only pure thing that I've got But it's promised my shores will be beautiful For now I'll stay but every second of the day I cannot be alone When this perfection turns bad I'll find my ultimate sadness But for now I won't survive alone, I need you, and I swear I'll never love alone
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Give My Life Away 04:57
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I don't think you know, how much it means to me, to spend some time alone with you, being so insane as someone quite like you Meeting's come and gone, at least we'll have this song, as my gift to you no matter what we choose to do So here's to us and who we are and how we got this far And when it's cold and dark will you guide me through this, be my burning star I need a fair share of the love we crave and the pain that drifts away Pull me under drag me in so I can say Give it all we've got tonight If I could make this feeling last until the day I day Take my soul and take my heart I would give my life away The colour in your eyes, has lead to my demise, I've given all my hope to you, I have all of the time in the world for you Through all the songs we play, through every dreary day, it all comes down to this we're goin base to base inside a house of glass So here's to us and who we are and how we got this far And when it's cold and dark I will guide you through this, be your burning star We've had our fair share of the love we crave and the touch that fades away Pull me under drag me in so I can say Give it all we've got tonight If I could make this feeling last until the day I day Take my soul and take my heart I would give my life away Whatever you want, whatever you need It doesn't need to be from crowded stores or dead high streets I won't lose my mind you'll see When I know you'll always, be the one that's there for me Give it all we've got tonight If I could make this feeling last until the day I day Take my soul and take my heart I would give my life away
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If Only, Whenever 04:04
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Eternity seems to last forever with you I couldn't care any more about anyone Is now the time, you're really mine we've waited so long Take off my shoes, oh god it's you, how the hell did I get you this far Lips and hips and subtlety, deep breathes warm bed lay next to me Gasp and stare find any sense, of worth in childish innocence Ask if you're sure of this, you close your eyes and say yes Chest pounding evidently, just think of when you met me I've finally earned, this lesson learned, I've waited so long State of undress, my head's a mess, the most beautiful mess of all If only, whenever I hurt, I could be here again, wryly ashamed again If only, whenever I sleep, you are in agony, grinning there next to me Let's keep this undercover, I think we'll soon discover The ins and outs of romance, who'd have thought of this from the first dance Buttons, zips and lace away, more underneath my lucky day Labels gone and so have I, gave in to bliss my cyanide If only, whenever I moan, you don't get sick of me, my lifestyle of entropy If only, whenever I stop, you ask for more of this, more than a goodnight kiss
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Another Shade Of Sanguine 04:01
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Fuck me baby I've been neglected I need orgasmic cleanse Every city Gives me the evils And tells me I'm a blind man Kiss me stranger Do you read Kerouac And drink champagne on the dais Let your hair down And maybe someday I'll feel you the same way I'll keep ingesting the snow from the pockets of a tyrant plagued with troubles stemmed from violent childhood issues And leave a message on your phone that I'm not coming home any more I'm too broken for help now Leave him baby So masochistic To be unfreed from the chains Be my saviour My dark reflection The truth I'm gonna laugh at For every second trading verses in winter I'll drink one more glass, a lament to the past times And drop my key by the phone because I'm not coming home any more I'm too bitter for help now Break the boundary I'll let them watch us Evaporate into dust Off the trail now Too tired for breathing Of course I'm gonna change man, cause everybody's changed man Drop a line to say your happy, with a less obsessive family, and I, I'm still so glad you came along
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Better Left Victims 03:06
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I remember being suitably scarred By the thought of being safe in your arms I remember feeling happy at last Now you bore me Anniversaries of staying up late For a while you seemed so certainly great After everything you said when we met Try and score me Don't try any more Love in semaphore Doesn't make you any less alone I remember every word of the note Left on my pillow stating "sorry if I woke you baby" Seven kisses and a cliche oh how You amaze me As for now it's like the dog had it's day and so it's On the backseat of an empty car on such a sunny day Gasping collapsing slowly drifting away You erase me I don't care if you don't stay If you're here or far away I can't help myself never mind being half of what we were You're a burden to me, for all that it's worth Don't try any more Love in semaphore Childish metaphors My little friendly beautiful lost cause
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Kept A Timid Envy 03:32
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Exposed and complicated I'm half awake and you're medicated At least you're home, I'm in the rain and it's not getting warmer Why are you crying when you're not even the lonesome victim Cause he is far too cold to feel, anything at all He kept a timid envy, he kept a timid envy, he kept a timid envy for you Shadows creeping up on my every move, how is this fair that I'm The one in so much pain, and you're alright I thought we might have had the future that I'd always dreamed of Before we made out, made up, now it's gone And you should know that I'm not coping fine at all, without The battle between, the Beatles and Stones The cellar of love and the thrill of the Roses The look in the eyes at the ending of one I've lost every concept relating to fun But you killed me inside and you stood on the pieces My heart is still white being strangled like he is You fucked with my head and you've fucked up my balance Disposing of my memory's the ultimate challenge Now I'm far too crippled to tell all my friends At least I hope they're friends, they kinda seem like it to me But everything's so complicated Wish we communicated When I weren't so medicated I love them more than I should And it's crazy who I'm crazy for Princesses and useless whores Why do people still adore The ones that they know they can't have Making emptiness go away naturally Leaving our virtual empathy down to Wastes of our time like, keeping a timid envy Keeping a timid envy Creating a timid envy Craving a timid envy Praying to die of this malignant envy
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Implant 03:52
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Oh I never bled for this Oh she said don't touch her there She screams silently to me Please be heard but never seen How I long to stand here easily But I'm so out of sync with us I need to curse you like I should Someone take away the part Where I once loved you Oh where did you say we were Oh I haven't been here recently You said most is still not all But most the time I can't admit That I still see us as What we were Three more minutes on the clock What a thrill this should have been Implants memories Infrequently How you begged me How you could Leave me thinking If I should Do I look back with regret On a half-smoked cigarette Did I prove myself the way you asked? Dying campfire Drunken nights Carnal desire Drunken fights After all is said and done We had our time, if just half fun Implants memories so frequently

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A musical tale of modern teenage romance, from drunken first encounters, to first dates, first loves, and first times.

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released November 20, 2015

All instrumentation, lyrics, programming, production and mixing by Frazer Spooner.

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Independent multi-instrumentalist from the UK, with a love for vibrations that sound subjectively good together, some more than others. All instruments and lyrics you hear are recorded, played, written and mixed by myself.

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